Inspired?

ttocsland
July 29th, 2005
Current Mood:hopeful
Current Music:”people who grinned themselves to death” by The Housemartins
I don’t think so. But I have been perusing a blog from a guy from where I grew up which is making me think – hey, this is all about me. It’s not all about you – the reader. Interesting thoughts – that means I have to be happy with what I write. That’s all.

Had a bit of wordage done regarding a lamp I have from a few lifetimes ago, and it’s intersection with a peanuts strip from a few weeks ago. The lamp depicts Snoopy at a typewriter. Can’t recall if I picked that up at a second-hand store, or just a clearance store, though it definitely was in Maryland, so I have that bit o’ recall still. I remember having it as a reminder to write – something I have wanted to do for many many years.

the peanuts strip is a sunday one, with Snoopy, at the end, declaring “Good writing is hard work!” – truer words have never been spoken.

Good writing. “It was a dark and stormy night” – that’s Snoopy’s contribution. I’ve made a few myself.Something I tend to forget.

But back to this blog thing- it suffers from my perpetual cycle of enthusiastic care and tending, then a precipitous drop as I distract myself with self-doubt and too much TiVo… I have ideas. Lots of ideas. One idea was to make a list of the ideas I have, that way I’d always have something to write about. Hah… that, sadly, would take too much time to organize – sometimes I feel that I’ve spent a good deal of my life organizing my life so I’m organized – to what end? so I can find gas bills from three states ago – truly, what do I gain from that?

I’ve mentioned the impending return to two-wheeling – I’ll but the guy after this jaunt of jotting – I fear I’m hinging a good deal of happiness and productivity to the return to mobility. Foolish? I fear. But at least it’s a distinct and real difference that will be applied over the life I’m living now.

And so, I choose a mood, push play on the other machine’s MMJB, and continue…

I guess I feel there’s little benefit to discussing the exact past. Such as:
“people who grinned themselves to death” by The Housemartins, first heard … who cares? Really? I personally have a love for the impact that music/songs have had in my life – probably ’cause I need to focus more on the changes that actually happened…
How about ‘Ripple’, covered by Jane’s Addiction – circa 1991 – from a Thankful Dead tribute album – I was in store #273, lost, and cranking the tunes quite loudly.

The point of this remembrance? To prove I existed elsewhere? damn…

I was typing about the Housemartins – and it came flooding back just how lame my existence was at that time. Certainly I impressed folks, and to their credit I wasn’t shunted to a corner as a leper, but wow – I was gonna explain that the guy who had the album playing (which sent me off in a spiral of how he could have at work, cause we couldn’t at work… getting lost in the finer details of images/memories that may or may not be accurate) – he was a club kid, he had the great parities off base, etc. – and I’d attended, but not really partake – though I guess at that time my attendance was how I partook. Ugh… see – I get to this point and really REALLY wonder why the hell I’m writing this shit. I guess partly to remind myself to partake, and partly to jot down what fading details I do recall. Sucks getting old! Though I feel much less stressed about being wrong or making shit up!

So, where was I? Good writing. Good performance. Good grief.

Well. From the top – it’s all about me, right?
I have to be happy with it. It’s not the great American novel. It’s my … journaling. Which is different from my … writing? no. Hell.

Let’s spell check and then push, cause once you do that it’s all good.

ciao,
;+s+:

life at the moment…

ttocsland
July 27th, 2005
Current Mood:good
Recent things…
J’ {heart} Alex!! That was a fun night, last week. I think it had to do with the Scott’s, but that’s just me.

General Admissions tonight – wednesday, 27th – at Hudson Theater/Comedy Central stage – reservations required – I recommend it.

New tubing for the ice maker, cause the old stuff got a hole in it and moisted the bedroom floor – which then popped up in places… but hopefully we get cold water filtered at the fridge (and ice!) again… Home Depot almost rocks…

We had an ikea run the other day – was pleasant.

Softball on Sat morn was good – though a bit of a challenge… Brunch at the Natural Boutique (?) was also quite good.

Sunday was the wrap party for Waving Goodbye – very good to chill with all the good people – plus the puppies! Also had the chance to chat with Kim and Maude and Daniella – very much fun, though helping the two boys meet the puppies was cool too!

Monday I signed up for 12 credit hours of schooling at SMC – full time according to the FAFSA peeps – wow! So in a few weeks I’ll be enjoying:
JOURN 8, WRITING TO SELL

GR DES 34, PUBLICATION AND PAGE DESIGN

CIS 51, WEB PAGE DESIGN USING XHTML AND CSS – online

CIS 1, COMPUTER CONCEPTS WITH APPLICATIONS – online

wow – that looks daunting a bit.

I dusted off the moto helmet, cause I finally pushed the Radian off to the shop… hopefully I’ll pick it up this week. I’m excited!!

Ok, just a little recap. More as time goes by…

(copied from Maisy’s Journal…) Oh Oh Oh Oh…. Dear Journal….

ttocsland
July 25th, 2005
Current Mood: happy
Oh my goodness!!!
I had such a great day – possibly the best day EVER!!!!
where do I start? where do I start???

ok ok ok…

Hey – some one’s here!

I love it when friends come over!

Dozer was a bit shy…

Doesn’t Dozer have great ears?

Here’s Dozer and Me…

Smee was there too – we had so much fun!

I am soooooooo happy!

wow – we ran and played and had so much fun. Tired me out…

sigh….

TK
Hey - some one's here!
Hey – some one’s here!
I love it when friends come over!
I love it when friends come over!
Dozer was a bit shy...
Dozer was a bit shy…
Doesn't Dozer have great ears?
Doesn’t Dozer have great ears?
Here's Dozer and Me...
Here’s Dozer and Me…
Smee was there too - we had so much fun!
Smee was there too – we had so much fun!
I am soooooooo happy!
I am soooooooo happy!
wow - we ran and played and had so much fun. Tired me out...
wow – we ran and played and had so much fun. Tired me out…
TK

I can’t believe,,,

ttocsland
July 2nd, 2005
Current Mood: shocked
Current Music:blathering sports commentator – ‘Tour de Lance’
what a horrid job MTV did covering the Live 8 concert.
Uh, cutting away from Pink Floyd so the semi-useless ‘personalities’ can say “it’s Pink Floyd – together again – I never thought I’d see or hear this…” – uh. It’s actually happening NOW, so shut the fuck up!!!

but I can deal with that – ok. no I can’t.
But it pales in comparison to Damien, wrapping from the litter strewn ghost town that was the Philly show – with “I think it’s time for a cheesesteak”

Nice. 8 hours of coverage of the (I shudder as I type this word) extreme, DEADLY poverty in Africa, you know – raising the awareness of how someone dies every three seconds from hunger or preventable disease – and you give a shout out to the sammy of the town you’re in???

fucking incredible.

I’m so sad.
so ashamed.

crap – a bit more of my youthful innocence dies, and I blame fucking MTV!

bastards.

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